So here’s the deal. I am living a block and a half from the beach. I haven’t even walked up the street to see the ocean yet! I’m pretty busy that’s for sure.
I get to work at 7 am and work until 5 or later. I park in the contractor parking lot so it is about a 10 minute walk to my building. Since it’s winter, it’s usually a brisk walk.
Sometimes I leave at 4:30 and stop at the grocery store for some produce. While cooking dinner, I sometimes treat myself to a bourbon. I cook a nice dinner of chicken or fish, a little jasmine rice, sautéed zucchini. I wash the dishes and pans. I sit at my computer and watch Jeopardy. Sometimes I have a decent Internet connection and can play my games and catch up on with my blogging buddies. In the morning, I make some coffee, shower, eat breakfast and head for the mainland!
Today I had the opportunity to leave at 4:30 so I came home and tried to sketch a still life but it wasn’t happening for me. It was also snowing so I declined a walk to the beach although I’m sure I missed an opportunity somewhere! No bourbon tonight – no treat.
The job… well, I like what I’m doing. It is really stimulating work. It requires a great deal of thinking and concentration and attention to detail. It has nothing to do with Ethernet or authenticating or printer jams or IP addresses or DNS or email or FTP. I’m the customer for a change and it’s kind of cool.
I enjoy the other team members. They are really smart and they work hard too. I feel like I’m making a difference. I’m also making a shitload of money and that is never a bad deal!
When my position was eliminated, I really felt like a failure. Sure, it wasn’t because I lacked skills or ability. I just felt like my very cool personality had failed me and that if I had been more likable, I never would have been unemployed. I realize now – that kind of reasoning is just plain crazy.
So it’s kind of cool to be living at the shore by myself. It’s like being on a little retreat because I have plenty of quiet time. Of course, I keep the heat pretty low because it’s electric heat and really expensive. Now, if I work at a nuclear plant, don’t you think I should get some kind of utility discount?
I had auditioned for the children’s theater show and had a small part. I had to drop out when I accepted this position. I’m still slated to do the high school show – Godspell, one of my favorites. It shouldn’t be too taxing – I’m using the same players I used 12 years ago. So I’ve managed to keep the creativity going!
Being here is like being on a little retreat. I have solitude and peace. It’s almost surreal. I pray a little more than usual. Go to bed earlier than usual – except for on Wednesday nights because LOST is on. Tonight I talked to a bunch of people on the phone for a long time. I talked to my husband, my nephew, my girlfriend, my other girlfriend, my sister-in-law and my son. It was good to catch up and it made me realize what a blessing this time has been.
So from the shore, I’ll say goodnight.